The Trip To Sydney
God opened the doors, thus I was able to write about my trip to Sydney. It was kind of a sudden decision, but if I were to look back, it was actually one of my little dreams to visit Sydney, all thanks to the TV series "Spellbinder" where I first saw how Sydney looked like and immediately I said to myself that I wanna go there someday, and of course the famous Sydney 2000. God is just amazing, full of surprises.
It started off with a struggle to ask for my dad’s permission, which turned out to be not a struggle at all. He gave his permission on the spot. But it wouldn’t be a great trip if there weren’t any other challenges. Renewal of passport, transferring of my student visa to the new passport and application for Australian visa itself, which all of them (the officers and the people in-charge said that it was impossible to get them done in that short period of time, but guess what God is a god of the impossible, all of them were done within a week!!) You see, when God opens the doors, nothing can even move an mm to close it.
Oh of course, how could it slip of my mind, the trip wasn’t just a normal holiday trip watsoever, but it was a trip to attend Hillsong 20th Conference. Now, what else could be more exciting than that! Hohoho yes there is…my BIRTHDAY!! Isn’t that great?!
Twelve of us went together and we reached there on the 2nd of July 2006, hmm perhaps let me share a little bit on the flying part.
~due to my tight schedule and due to the constraint of human’s eyes, I’ll continue it some other time~
To Those Who Have Shown Me Hope
Blessed by the conference, picking up the pieces again, my spirit is strengthened.
God has been good all the way be it in the deepest valley or in my highest peak.
He gives and He takes away.
He provides in the way a mortal could never imagine.
He blesses so that we can be generous.
I am not just blessed with bread but people who have embedded their handprints in my heart.
Some smaller, some bigger. Some lighter, some deeper.
Hands that have helped to shape to who I am right now.
To those who have shown me hope, I love you.
Pressured
Back from Sydney, greeted with the hot and humid weather, my body reacted in an unpleasant way.
Filled with more passion and confidence only to be shaken by a worrying spirit of mine.
Pressured with the coming semester, my brain isn’t willing to cooperate.
I could only rely on the One who truly understands me.
Thousands are hidden and only a few are displayed, only you O Lord who sees what’s hidden.
Anxious about my purpose I have weakened my spirit.
All I wanna do is to serve, but am I good enough to be used?
Failures is what I have, yet I never strive to be better.
Don’t pass me by, don’t let me go O Lord.
For only You could strengthen my faltering knees.
Capture these thoughts and renew my mind.
Give me confidence O Lord, to face this life.
For in you alone I put my trust and hope.
In my heart You are enthrone in the highest place.
No one else could ever replace You.
Not even the mortal whom I hold dearest to my heart.
For all I am is Yours.
I didn’t ask You to erase the memories only the feelings.
For every single heartbeat belongs to You alone.
O Lord that You will crush me, break me, destroy me, undo me.
I rather be a piece of metal that only obeys You.
Yet Your unfailing love melts the solid iron and now I am a treasured clay.
Clay that worths more than silver and gold in Your eyes.
Help me to see that O Lord whenever these eyes lose focus on something else.
Restore me even as I humbled myself in Your presence.
There is no one else for me but You O Lord.
This is the cry of my heart.
Pain is all I am feeling but what is it compares to Yours on that cross.
But I know You understand because You felt it, too.
And that is what makes You my God, my only One.
